The check is in the mail.

I'd like to think by now that I has steeled myself into having no real thoughts about writing my first alimony check, but despite my efforts, I couldn't help it.

Today was the signing of my first check.

My brain is trying to rationalize it as a "business transaction gone wrong", but a contract is a contract, and despite the outcome, at least I know my word is in fact 'my word' and I will comply.

Although the temptation of writing some heartfelt note to accompany it, or maybe a snarky comment in the blank line section of the check presented itself....I just didn't allow myself get sucked down to that level.  It's better to take the high road and prove myself above the pettiness in the long run.

"They say unto him, Caesar's. Then saith he unto them, Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caesar's; and unto God the things that are God's." (Matthew 22:21)

That scripture just kept coming to my mind the last few days.  This above words were the response Jesus spoke to the Pharisees when asked if Jews should pay taxes to Rome.

Christ is basically saying these are the rules of the land, whether you agree with them or not, you should abide by these man-made rules in the mortal life....however, your spiritual obligations are of a higher order and God will reward the trusting and the obedient faithfully, despite their earthly persecutions.

I also sat down with my HR department today and updated my personal files to reflect new beneficiaries and adjust my Health care coverage.  Perhaps she can sign up for Obamacare if they ever get that website working.